Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Why I worry...

Honestly I think many women (and men) are born worriers.  
I was not.  
As a young child I was an extremely carefree spirit (just ask my family).
I had no fear,
or worry in the world.  

That all changed dramatically when I was 8 1/2 years old.  
A very close friend was killed in a car accident.
I was at my Dad's when it happened.
From that moment on I feared leaving my mom and my sister.
I would have panic attacks when they would leave even for a few hours.
Fear and worry overtook my mind anytime I was away from home or my family.

Fast forward a few years, when I was 14, another very dear friend was killed in a car accident.
I was at home this time.
A couple of months after the 2nd accident I realized that it didn't matter where I was.
Then I carried my fear and worry with me everywhere.
For the most part I hid it very well, no one outside of my very tight circle knew this was a struggle.
I would hide my tears when leaving on overnight trips.
I learned to cry without making a sound.

Two years later the man who had the greatest influence on my life, my Granddaddy,  
passed away after a long battle with various illnesses.

Again the fear and worry struck this time with a vengeance.  
On the outside I appeared to deal with it all well,
on the inside I struggled desperately.  

All I wanted was to have my fear and worry comforted.
I knew God but I didn't have a relationship with him.
He was just the person I asked why to all the time.
Why did he allow this to happen to me...
Why couldn't I be from a family with more money...
Why were my parents divorced...
Why was I not able to do this or that...

Soon college came and I turned from asking why,
to seeking comfort in other ways.
The first 8 months of my college career could have killed me,
but God watched over me,
he lead me away from that life.

He brought a constant source of comfort to me,
God knew what I needed and he sent that comfort
in the form of my favorite farmer.

As time passed God gently nudged me into a full blown relationship with Him,
where I find myself completely lost without Him.

Last night was one of those nights where I felt lost.
I couldn't get hold of the farmer on the phone,
it was late and the same old worries and fears started to rise in my heart.  
When these fears arise, panic sets in...

what am I going to do if something happens to the farmer,

what about our farmboys??

I have learned in these times I have to mentally stop myself,
and refocus on God.
Everything that happens is all part of His plan, 
and His plan is far better than ours.
And then I pray...
praising Him for His love,
thanking Him for our blessings,
and begging Him for guidance.

This the verse that plays repeatedly in my head during these moments

Philippians 4:6

do not be anxious about anything,

 but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving

 let your requests be made known to God.  (ESV)


Why do you worry??  
Share in the comments.

Until we meet again...

Caci




Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Wrangler Wednesday: Farmers love to learn...even on vacation


So this past weekend the #farmer, #farmboys & I took a mini vacation, 
thanks to our milk cooperative.  

View from our hotel room

We attended our 1st Summer Break...in Amish Country.
Now some of you may think we spent the 4 days eating ourselves silly, 
touring Amish Farms, and visiting the world's largest Coo-Coo Clock.
However that's not exactly how it worked out. 

Lunch with my handsome hubs

We did eat.

And the crazy farmboys

The farmer's favorite part of our trip was the toll booths (WV) and the tunnels (VA) along I-77.




We did get to explore some very scenic parts of Ohio

Amish Countryside

Visit a popular town park...which puts our playground to shame

Carousal at Tuscora Park

The Farmer & Farm Boys at Tuscora Park

Celebrate National Ice Cream Day


Enjoy some great family time together


Meet lots of new folks (yes, all dairy farmers)

Farm kids enjoying the pool

But the purpose wasn't solely for fun, but also education.

1 of the 4 small groups at Andreas Dairy Farm

You see this is organized by our milk cooperative to allow young farmers (18-40) 
to visit other dairies and learn how they operate.

Some had niche markets such as making maple syrup
  What are those dairies doing differently? 
 How are they keeping cows cool?

Farmer & Farm Baby checking out the cows at a farm

How do they handle fresh cows (cows who just had a calf)?
What are they feeding their cows?

Barn Quilt at Steam Valley Farms, Steel Family

And the whole family gets to attend...which is great since it's hard to get away from the farm,
especially as a whole family. 


Farmboy enjoying a snack break at Steam Valley Farms

We also were able to spend time with other folks just like us,
who work hard each day to supply others with safe, wholesome milk for their families and ours.
Who value their cattle and their land...
You see on this tour
 there were 120+ people...
I didn't see one factory farmer.
I saw moms, 
dads, 
and kids
 who all make up family farms 
from Georgia to Pennsylvania. 

Each farmer was attending so they could learn more,
get new ideas,
and fellowship with fellow farmers.  

the Farm Baby only lasted half a day on the tours 

Unfortunately the Farm Baby & I missed out on everything after lunch.
He was in desperate need of a nap...
which turned into a sleep fest.
He slept 13+ hours between Monday afternoon & Tuesday morning!!
 
When the Farmer & Farm Boy arrived back from the evening activities
I took the boy back to the pool.
Where many farm families sat around watching the kids play
while they chatted about everything from cow comfort to #momlife.
You see farmers make up a very small portion of the U.S. population (less than 2%),
so when we get a chance to visit with others like us...
we tend to play catch up because 
you most likely won't see them again for another 6 months to a year!

 

Overall we had a great trip.  
The Farm boys did great on the trip,
but were super excited to be back home 
and out of the car.
The farmer had some much needed time to relax.
He was headed to the farm within 30 minutes of getting home.

As the farm wife & mom,
I still have a mountain of laundry to catch up on,
have to return to our normal routine today. 
But wouldn't trade a minute of it.

Until we meet again...

Caci


Thursday, July 17, 2014

Being a Mom is Tough: P31 OBS


Being a mom is tough...
to me that may be the understatement of a life time.


I always knew I wanted to be a mom.
Truth be told I always wanted to be a boy mom.
6 boys to be exact...yes you read that right.
Remember telling my high school family life class that I wanted 6 kids...
all boys.  

We we are about a 1/3 of the way there...
honestly I don't know what God's plans are for the future 
(I really wish I could peak at his plan book)

We aren't opposed to more children.. but only he knows the plans he has for us.

Why do I find being a mom is tough?

1. You have to stick to your guns...
2. Lack of sleep...
3. Because I said so...

For me the hardest part of being a mom is boundaries.
I remember being that person in the store saying,
"My kid will never....(insert whatever undesirable behavior you would like)."
yeah I promise we have knocked off all of those items...
probably in one shopping trip.

Don't get me wrong we have rules in our family,
but I'm the slack one...
I'm not strict (ask my former students) and I'm not the enforcer...Daddy is :)

I have learned especially with my oldest that
he needs and wants clear expectations,
but just because of that doesn't mean that he will happily go along with them.

I have to be consistent
 not only in discipline, 
but also in our schedule, 
and my expectations.

I have also learned that as a mom,
I NEED way more sleep than I get.
See pre-mom I didn't need sleep...
I was great on 4 hrs...
could it be because that was 4 hours of uninterrupted sleep?
I'm sure that is the reason.

I can't tell you the last time I slept uninterrupted for more than 2 hours at a time.

And that leads me to the last on my list...Because I said so...
you see when I am not rested...I get cranky...
it's a family trait...everyone in my house is cranky without enough sleep.

When I get cranky I lose my patience,
I become short tempered,
and sharped tongued.  

I don't take time to discuss happenings with my boys,
I rush to judgement and punishment,
and more times than I care to admit utter that phrase,
"Because I said so..."

In those times,
I have caught myself crying out to God,
turning to a tear stained Bible,
searching for the answer.

And oh can he find the answer...
I have been humbled and brought to my knees more in parenting than any other part of my life.
Parenting has taught me how much I need God in my life.  
But even as tough as being a mom is...
I wouldn't trade it for the world.
It has been one of the greatest joys in my life.

One more thing makes being a mom tough...
knowing that God has entrusted the Farmer & me
with raising these two future men...
When the weight of that sinks in I sometimes feel like a lost ship...

again that's when I turn to him,
for guidance,
patience,
and wisdom. 

If you feel the same way, maybe you would be interested in joining me and many others doing an online Bible study over at Proverbs 31 Ministries.  We are doing the book "Am I Messing Up My Kids?"  It's not to late to join!  

If you are visiting from the P31 blog hop leave me a comment and let me know what you find tough about being a mom!

Until we meet again....

Caci



Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Tackling Tuesday: Vet Checks & 9 years of marriage

Tuesdays are always rough.  
I guess it's recovery from the first day of the week.
You see I have to reestablish my routine every Monday.
So Tuesday can be a bear.
Tuesdays are also busy at the barn.
The 1st Tuesday of the month we weigh milk...
which means we weigh how much milk each cow produces.
The 3rd Tuesday of the month our veterinarian comes to check our herd health.
Sometimes on these Tuesdays we have to move cows, heifers, and calves from different places to the barn so we can have the vet check them.  

Today is the 3rd Tuesday of July.  So that mean Dr. B is at the farm today.
He checks any cow who has had a calf in the last month,
he checks any cows and/or heifers who have been bred in the last 60 days to see if they have a calf,
and he addresses any issues we are having on any of the cows.  

Today the Farmer & I also celebrate our 9th wedding anniversary.


As you can tell from our engagement photos we were just kids.
Barely in our 20's
Still taking pictures in hay fields
 (follow my instagram @SCFarmWife to see more pictures of hay) 


We got married on one of the hottest days in July of 2005.  
In Georgia no less.
Which my bridesmaids loved 
(they were all wearing full length black gowns :)   
We had an afternoon thunderstorm 
which created some humidity to say the least.

But it was an amazing day full of family, friends, and fun.  
I am so amazed that God created someone so loving, patient and kind.  




 Fast forward a few years, kids, and cars later.
I am more in love with him now than I was then.
He has taught me so much over the years.
And the amount of grace and love he has shown me could float Noah's ark again. 





He is not only an amazing husband but a great daddy to our boys.
He always knows little eyes and ears are tuned into him.
He does his best to lead by example.
The boys and I have learned more about what hard work, dedication, and sacrifice means
by watching him than we could have in a lifetime.


He doesn't want much out of life, and ask for even less.
He doesn't covet material possessions 


Even though he probably does love his boots more than most ;)

So what do you get this guy?
That's always a problem...no matter the occasion.
9 years is traditionally willow or ceramics...not really his thing
Modern tradition states 9 years is leather...more more this thing.
But honestly new boots weren't in the budget,
he swears he doesn't need a new belt,
and the boys just got him a new wallet for Christmas.


So I got him a new Bible.

And throughout it I highlighted verses.
Some of the verses are about marriage
Some are to bring him encouragement,
Some are to comfort him,
some verses are for wisdom.  
(because as a husband, parent and farmer he needs lots)

I can't tell you exactly how many I marked for him,
but each one was marked out of love,
with the prayer that they speak to him 

I jotted down a few of the ones I marked:
Ruth 1:16...where ever he goes I go
Ephesians 5:23-27...wives & husbands
 Genesis 29:20...love makes time fly
Song of Solomon 1:1...love is better than wine
Philippians 1:9...love more
Colossians 3:23...work for God 

So Happy Anniversary to the love of my life!
Love you more today than yesterday,
will love you more tomorrow than today :) 

Until we meet again...

Caci

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Wrangler Wednesday

I can't believe it's already July!
And honestly it's quickly approaching the middle of July.

That means that lots of our friends who grow produce have many yummy things in their roadside stand.


Over the holiday weekend I grabbed some peaches, tomatoes, corn, squash and cantaloupe
from one of our favorite family farms....Cotton Hills Farm  
(If you are a regular to the blog you've probably seen me mention them before.)

I put up most of the corn, squash and tomatoes this weekend.
Well I put up what didn't make it's way into our tummies I should say ;)



This Farm Boy really impressed me this past week.  He has taken to writing in his journal often.  I can't always tell you what he's writing but he's putting his thoughts on paper!


He also did a great job of helping to shuck corn.  He was very meticulous on his silking duties,
which slowed us down but that's ok. 


His favorite part though was fresh corn on the cob.  As you can tell Farm Boy #2 
was quite pleased as well!



Speaking of FB2...he's a mess!
He loves to entertain everyone...see here why we have dubbed him...
"PACI MONSTER"

we never leave home without at least 2 sometimes 3 or more!


Those peaches you saw earlier were made into peach cobbler for the boys 
with a side of home made ice cream


And to cool off on the farm...we fill the old sandbox
with ice cold well water
and splash around


The farmer cut the hay field next to our house this week,
which means no more "over my head" field
and Farm Boy is excited to be able to run through it without fear of getting lost.


Here's the field while they were baling.  


And we are finally getting a few things out of our own 
tiny raised bed garden.

Farm Boy #2 is happy to help pick each evening,
while the original Farm Boy tends to his hens.

I'm just glad I don't have to deal with the chickens!

Until we meet again,

Caci





Friday, July 4, 2014

Happy Birthday America!!

Today is an amazing day!
Not only do we get to celebrate America's birthday 
but I get a day off from the 8-5.

Even though many of us have a day off

The cows still have to be milked



If Arthur doesn't get to us....hay will need to be baled






Cows checked

The garden watered



& Lambs walked



With any luck this farm boy will spend some time at the pond 



maybe even in the pool


And momma can enjoy a nice glass of sweet tea on the porch.

In case you are in need of any last minute
14 Easy Patriotic Desserts for the Fourth of July 
recipes,

DIY 4th of July Mason jars

 decoration ideas,

Because 4th of July is right around the corner, we are making any clothing that is Red, White, and Blue 50% off this week! Let your kids show off that they are for Team America with an outfit from Little Doses!    #Children #kids #clothes

style that bump for the 4th! || The Freckled Fox
 or outfits
you can check out my favorite ideas on my Pinterest board 

Praying you have a wonderful 4th & a bless weekend!

Caci